At the depths of my addiction i always still wanted to win. However my motivation was different. My only goal was to win more money to gamble, i had no end goal, nothing that would have satisfied my thirst as the more i won the more i gambled.
As you have said it's not easy to stop but it is possible. I set myself a date and from then just stopped as i reached my bottom. But i do realise thats not the norm and that was after many failed attempts to stop. Just have to keep resetting and persevering. Definetly speaking to others helped , i have had a lot of conversations with my close friends about my struggle and from that found out they were in a similar position and just recently i delivered a workshop to share my experience to a group of young lads in an area i used to live.
