I guess thats what sets us apart form the extreme sports types and why we don't go around jumping off buildings, and stuff. I mean one of my mates is a leading Skydiver in the UK, has been jumping since he was 8 years old with his dad, has his own freefall display team and competes around the world, yet he has total confidence in his planning, prep and equipment, and as such he doesn't think that he will either be killed or will seriously injure himself, the thoughts never enter his head, yet this guy last night thinks about being killed all the time, and he just keeps pushing the envelope ...really wierd behaviour.