What do you need to do to move forward mate? Are you happy at work? Is it life at home? Or is it something else making you unhappy?.
I always feel happy when my week at work has gone well and then I get out at the weekend for a run. I feel like absolute crap if I don't get a couple of runs in a week. It just clears my head.
It went OK I think but not really solved anything. I'm in a bigger mess now maybe the worse ever. I just wish it was all over
You sharing wasn't supposed to " solve " anything blueclouds. It was hopefully another person who could understand and support you if you were struggling. You are very depressed my friend, did you answer my question I can't remember? Have you been to the Drs to discuss your feelings. Common practice is to prescribe medication.
The purpose and hope of which is to elevate your mood to the extent where you no longer wish to harm / kill yourself. Once the " suicidal ideation " has dissapated you can start to work on the things that have caused your mental distress. Your family situation is the primary causal effect of your depression. Here's the good part Blue, circumstances re: your family can improve, can start to look better wherebye whilst they may not be perfect, they become more " bearable " for you. BUT WE ARE IN MY OPINION BLUE, LOOKING TOO FAR AHEAD !. Your main priority Blue is staying safe and trying to change your mind set from " wishing it was all over ".
Ive never said on here, what I'm going to say now, but you expressing you wish it was all over, is very concerning. As such, I think you need to see a mental health professional ( s ). They carry out what's called a MHA - mental health act assessment with you. A psychiatrist , social worker carry out an assessment of your mental state. If they deem it neccessary due to you wishing to " end it all " they have a duty of care to maintain your safety. They may put in place a package of care to help you cope, also available, an option of inpatient care where you will be looked after in hospital.
If you continue to feel so low and you feel like ending your life Blue, could I suggest you present yourself to A / E and tell them your having thoughts of wanting to end your life. They will arrange for you to see the On call mental health team. Am I saying you need to go to hospital? . A catagorical NO but I do think your mental state is very concerning and if you were in my care I would be worried. You need help my friend and that help is there.
If by the time you read this post, you are better mentally, then great. However if you continue to wish it " would all end " and your very depressed and anxious, then I would hope you could follow my suggestion. You need help buddy, your in a very precarious state of mind. Take care and I wish you all the best Blue.
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