Thanks mate. I truly appreciate your message.
You're 100% right that phone was just the straw that broke the camels back now I look at things objectively. She's not been herself for a while and if I'd known what I know now, I'd have been more prepared for what's happened. Its easy to just think things like "oh just having a bad phase, she'll be ok" or "she's just a bit more moody then normal" right up until it all kinda explodes.
She's defo in the right place. I know you're 100% correct but all the same, I'd do absolutely anything to have her well and back home with me. I'm so upset at the idea that she'll always feel like I betrayed her.