admirschleck
Player Valuation: £8m
Felt so bad today, one of the worst days in a while, just to log in here after and laugh my ass off in the Mata thread. I love this place.
TheAlmightyFloater
Player Valuation: £30m
Whenever life is getting too much, just remember there are people shouting at pretend ITK's on Twitter
wbn61
Player Valuation: £8m
that is so how it is
DownOnTheUpside
Player Valuation: £30m
Tbh i've been fighting it since i was 13 and ive seen this week how getting involved with family and friends on your own impetus can help
Might not apply to everyone since not everyone has that network
But its crazy how the narative changes when you decide im going out and dropping in on people rather than theyre dropping in on me
It won't change those facts that sit and wait for you when you go to bed but it won't half drown them out
By all means ive failed an interview and should be telling the bottle how im gonna push over that line THIS time but all i can think about is the face on my uncle when i turn up tomorrow for a family do and have a laugh with them
This week atleast my personality is waking up and kicking arses
Dosen't mean in a few months i wont be clockwatching my life and contemplating things i shouldnt
But this weekend and this next week are mine and my brains getting a shoeing if it tries to take that from me
Small steps lads, maybe we'll have a life we can smile back on ey?
Might not apply to everyone since not everyone has that network
But its crazy how the narative changes when you decide im going out and dropping in on people rather than theyre dropping in on me
It won't change those facts that sit and wait for you when you go to bed but it won't half drown them out
By all means ive failed an interview and should be telling the bottle how im gonna push over that line THIS time but all i can think about is the face on my uncle when i turn up tomorrow for a family do and have a laugh with them
This week atleast my personality is waking up and kicking arses
Dosen't mean in a few months i wont be clockwatching my life and contemplating things i shouldnt
But this weekend and this next week are mine and my brains getting a shoeing if it tries to take that from me
Small steps lads, maybe we'll have a life we can smile back on ey?
You're threads cheer everyone up mate, that'll do for me. Carry on the good work x
DualityNSNO
How much for the pair?
Good stuff mate.
What hits it home for me is the bits in bold. I'm the same for some reason - massive sigh of relief for my mentality now that I decided what I'm doing. Chatted to a very close family friend and he invited me to go visit him for a (long) weekend whenever I can in the Netherlands, which was good!
Also feeling very confident and, just, relaxed these last few days, which is a massive jump from how I was a few days before, as I wrote it here.
Obviously I might not be like that forever, but I'm feeling alive and well right now, even though my job is turd and I've got little to no money (not been paid for 2 weeks, and won't until next Friday
) and I keep being unable to sleep for prolongued times... But I don't feel like staying in bed hiding from the world all day, which is good.Also the owner of the place I work at, who I don't see very often or at all, genuinely thought I'm from the north of England/south of Scotland and asked me if I've ever been to Bulgaria (I was wearing a Bulgaria shirt with the flag on it and all)... That's a new one and tbh closer to where my accent probably is, as I say things way clearer with the prolongued pronounciation of a northern accent (think a worse/better Ross Noble I guess), and also an actual closer to me accent, as usually they say Irish (?!?!?), Swedish (which I sort of get) or Dutch/German.
lol Integrating before I leave, fantastic. lol
BiggyRat
Player Valuation: £35m
DualityNSNO
How much for the pair?
Rest is needed mate, no worries
Very understandable given the circumstances mate.
Just post if and when you can, we're not going anywhere x
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First visit to the gym for today just a swim, but have a bag full of clothes for actual gym work now
small steps
small steps
Good for you mate, take it very easy to start with if you haven't done anything for a long time. The stiffness the following day can be a killer and makes loads give up early.
DualityNSNO
How much for the pair?
Is right mate. Me and my flatmate are going to check out some gyms tomorrow and start going soon enough.
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Good luck mate. I shall attend the gym with a view to awkwardly using some of the kit!