Discussion & help on depression & mental health related issues

[Rugby Toffee]

I was signed off work 8 weeks ago with PTSD. Last August i found my elderly mother on the floor of her house, she had been there 4 days. Had the police break in to get to her. Anyways got her to hospital and was told she was DNR, I had no knowledge of this. However she sought of pulled through but was in hospital until October, during this time she managed to break her hip whilst supposedly being under observation. Then she was diagnosed with Vascular Dementia,so it wasn't safe for her to go home. So I had to find a suitable care home for her. She finally got a place in a care home in December.However she was now suffering mini strokes and had to spend Xmas and New Year in hospital. She was discharged mid January this year, but I watched her die on the 21st. Being the only child , I had all her finances to sort , funeral to arrange etc,etc.....Nightmare.All this time I was working in a secure hospital with offenders with Learning Disabilities. It wasn't till June that everything hit me, I was isolating myself and the thoughts of self harm and suicide were becoming increasingly more often.

What I have found is Counselling is fine when I am there, but doesn't seem to work when at home etc. I seem to spend more time walking Moysie and talking to the missus about my feelings , which is alien to me but talking helps.

Don't really know why I am posting this , but depression etc is a very lonely illness. People are quick to judge and you could be standing next to me chatting away , but ignorant to the fact I am broken inside.

Stay Strong Peeps.

 

[The Esk]

I was signed off work 8 weeks ago with PTSD. Last August i found my elderly mother on the floor of her house, she had been there 4 days. Had the police break in to get to her. Anyways got her to hospital and was told she was DNR, I had no knowledge of this. However she sought of pulled through but was in hospital until October, during this time she managed to break her hip whilst supposedly being under observation. Then she was diagnosed with Vascular Dementia,so it wasn't safe for her to go home. So I had to find a suitable care home for her. She finally got a place in a care home in December.However she was now suffering mini strokes and had to spend Xmas and New Year in hospital. She was discharged mid January this year, but I watched her die on the 21st. Being the only child , I had all her finances to sort , funeral to arrange etc,etc.....Nightmare.All this time I was working in a secure hospital with offenders with Learning Disabilities. It wasn't till June that everything hit me, I was isolating myself and the thoughts of self harm and suicide were becoming increasingly more often.

What I have found is Counselling is fine when I am there, but doesn't seem to work when at home etc. I seem to spend more time walking Moysie and talking to the missus about my feelings , which is alien to me but talking helps.

Don't really know why I am posting this , but depression etc is a very lonely illness. People are quick to judge and you could be standing next to me chatting away , but ignorant to the fact I am broken inside.

Stay Strong Peeps.

Wow mate, I hope you get as much out of writing the above as people will by reading it. It takes great courage to open up even on an anonymous forum such as this, and it helps others put their troubles into context plus realising they're not alone - so thank you.

It seems like you have some professional help plus the support of your partner which is fantastic, however please use this place if you feel the need to "dump" any thoughts you may have and I'm sure someone will pick up on them.

All the best for the future, and please keep posting here!

 

[Phenom]

I was signed off work 8 weeks ago with PTSD. Last August i found my elderly mother on the floor of her house, she had been there 4 days. Had the police break in to get to her. Anyways got her to hospital and was told she was DNR, I had no knowledge of this. However she sought of pulled through but was in hospital until October, during this time she managed to break her hip whilst supposedly being under observation. Then she was diagnosed with Vascular Dementia,so it wasn't safe for her to go home. So I had to find a suitable care home for her. She finally got a place in a care home in December.However she was now suffering mini strokes and had to spend Xmas and New Year in hospital. She was discharged mid January this year, but I watched her die on the 21st. Being the only child , I had all her finances to sort , funeral to arrange etc,etc.....Nightmare.All this time I was working in a secure hospital with offenders with Learning Disabilities. It wasn't till June that everything hit me, I was isolating myself and the thoughts of self harm and suicide were becoming increasingly more often.

What I have found is Counselling is fine when I am there, but doesn't seem to work when at home etc. I seem to spend more time walking Moysie and talking to the missus about my feelings , which is alien to me but talking helps.

Don't really know why I am posting this , but depression etc is a very lonely illness. People are quick to judge and you could be standing next to me chatting away , but ignorant to the fact I am broken inside.

Stay Strong Peeps.

Very powerful, look after yourself man.

 

[kithnou]

Wow mate, I hope you get as much out of writing the above as people will by reading it. It takes great courage to open up even on an anonymous forum such as this, and it helps others put their troubles into context plus realising they're not alone - so thank you.

It seems like you have some professional help plus the support of your partner which is fantastic, however please use this place if you feel the need to "dump" any thoughts you may have and I'm sure someone will pick up on them.

All the best for the future, and please keep posting here!

+1

 

[Baggzio]

Don't apologise for posting on here. I'm an old git but as @kithnou said, you've got really exciting times ahead! My twenties were absolutely totally the best decade of my life. You will grow up and find out who you are. Enjoy the ride.

More seriously if you don't get the grades to go to college.... so what? There is so much pressure on young people today to think that rubbish A Levels are the end of the world. They are not. Yes, your family might be disappointed but they will get over it and still love you. There are alternatives or you could do them again. The Civil Service is full of university drop outs and A Level students who didn't quite get the grades. They are all making a decent living.

Good luck x

Thanks for the reply lad sorry for being a bit late, took a bit of a internet cleanse the past few days so that's why I only seen it now.

Im gonna try and stay positive with what's to come no matter what happens, it'll be the immediate aftermath that'll really be tough if results are bad but I guess I'll just have to work hard and make sure I make something of myself albeit maybe a different route in life I suppose.

Anyways thanks again to u and all the other blues for all of yer replies it really means a lot and I'm definitely gonna try and take all the advice I've gotten on board and prepare for what's to come next.

Cheers

 

[Rugby Toffee]

Wow mate, I hope you get as much out of writing the above as people will by reading it. It takes great courage to open up even on an anonymous forum such as this, and it helps others put their troubles into context plus realising they're not alone - so thank you.

It seems like you have some professional help plus the support of your partner which is fantastic, however please use this place if you feel the need to "dump" any thoughts you may have and I'm sure someone will pick up on them.

All the best for the future, and please keep posting here!

Thanks-Sometimes talking takes the edge off and opening up isn't a thing I am comfortable with.

 

[wbn61]

Thanks-Sometimes talking takes the edge off and opening up isn't a thing I am comfortable with.

Keep opening up, I feel the same I just want to get things out but struggle but when I do it feels good no matter what rubbish I've typed.
I understand about the loneliness, people always say to me " you're looking well " and I get so annoyed.
so if you feel the need keep on chatting on here, we are all here to help if we can.

 

[wbn61]

getting ready to go to the match soon. To be honest i'm not really looking forward to it. I feel so lousy. Yesterday I walked to the vets with my son and I struggled all the way there, out of breath, retching and stopping every 10 yds to rest, I had to get another son to come and pick me up to get back home. Hopefully it won't e as bad today and I will have plenty of people to assist me and I suppose it's better than just lazing around on the sofa lol. time to take my pills and get ready to go.
hope everyone is well and have a good day.

 

[kithnou]

getting ready to go to the match soon. To be honest i'm not really looking forward to it. I feel so lousy. Yesterday I walked to the vets with my son and I struggled all the way there, out of breath, retching and stopping every 10 yds to rest, I had to get another son to come and pick me up to get back home. Hopefully it won't e as bad today and I will have plenty of people to assist me and I suppose it's better than just lazing around on the sofa lol. time to take my pills and get ready to go.
hope everyone is well and have a good day.

Enjoy mate

 

[BiggyRat]

getting ready to go to the match soon. To be honest i'm not really looking forward to it. I feel so lousy. Yesterday I walked to the vets with my son and I struggled all the way there, out of breath, retching and stopping every 10 yds to rest, I had to get another son to come and pick me up to get back home. Hopefully it won't e as bad today and I will have plenty of people to assist me and I suppose it's better than just lazing around on the sofa lol. time to take my pills and get ready to go.
hope everyone is well and have a good day.

Go on behalf of those of us who are on the wrong side of the planet!

 

[wbn61]

Go on behalf of those of us who are on the wrong side of the planet!

Wish I was on the wrong side of the planet after watching that.

 

[BiggyRat]

Wish I was on the wrong side of the planet after watching that.

Well, I guess it has its advantages occasionally

 

[Abertonian]

Wish I was on the wrong side of the planet after watching that.

Glad I didn't pay for this one on Everton TV then. Despite the game, I hope the day generally was better than you feared and you managed to get through it a bit easier than the trip to the vets.

 

[matty1878]

I was signed off work 8 weeks ago with PTSD. Last August i found my elderly mother on the floor of her house, she had been there 4 days. Had the police break in to get to her. Anyways got her to hospital and was told she was DNR, I had no knowledge of this. However she sought of pulled through but was in hospital until October, during this time she managed to break her hip whilst supposedly being under observation. Then she was diagnosed with Vascular Dementia,so it wasn't safe for her to go home. So I had to find a suitable care home for her. She finally got a place in a care home in December.However she was now suffering mini strokes and had to spend Xmas and New Year in hospital. She was discharged mid January this year, but I watched her die on the 21st. Being the only child , I had all her finances to sort , funeral to arrange etc,etc.....Nightmare.All this time I was working in a secure hospital with offenders with Learning Disabilities. It wasn't till June that everything hit me, I was isolating myself and the thoughts of self harm and suicide were becoming increasingly more often.

What I have found is Counselling is fine when I am there, but doesn't seem to work when at home etc. I seem to spend more time walking Moysie and talking to the missus about my feelings , which is alien to me but talking helps.

Don't really know why I am posting this , but depression etc is a very lonely illness. People are quick to judge and you could be standing next to me chatting away , but ignorant to the fact I am broken inside.

Stay Strong Peeps.

Your a very very strong and courageous guy! hats of to you mate. Keep on fighting the fight pal.

 

[COYBL25]

I was signed off work 8 weeks ago with PTSD. Last August i found my elderly mother on the floor of her house, she had been there 4 days. Had the police break in to get to her. Anyways got her to hospital and was told she was DNR, I had no knowledge of this. However she sought of pulled through but was in hospital until October, during this time she managed to break her hip whilst supposedly being under observation. Then she was diagnosed with Vascular Dementia,so it wasn't safe for her to go home. So I had to find a suitable care home for her. She finally got a place in a care home in December.However she was now suffering mini strokes and had to spend Xmas and New Year in hospital. She was discharged mid January this year, but I watched her die on the 21st. Being the only child , I had all her finances to sort , funeral to arrange etc,etc.....Nightmare.All this time I was working in a secure hospital with offenders with Learning Disabilities. It wasn't till June that everything hit me, I was isolating myself and the thoughts of self harm and suicide were becoming increasingly more often.

What I have found is Counselling is fine when I am there, but doesn't seem to work when at home etc. I seem to spend more time walking Moysie and talking to the missus about my feelings , which is alien to me but talking helps.

Don't really know why I am posting this , but depression etc is a very lonely illness. People are quick to judge and you could be standing next to me chatting away , but ignorant to the fact I am broken inside.

Stay Strong Peeps.

Amazing post mate and you've hit the nail on the head there about people judging and being unaware of what's going on.

On a side note have you considered jogging with the dog rather than walking ?. I find running incredible therapeutic both during and afterwards due to the release of endorphins. It just makes me feel so much better.