I have some health issues, Diabetes, Chronic Kidney Disease, etc.
Kidney Specialist told me that I have 10 years left unless I have a heart attack first. I inject Insulin 4 times per day and take 11 tablets per day.
In february, I took ill and was always breathless and became exhausted after even minimum exercise. It took two months for the doctors to tell me I'm asthmatic and inhalers now control the breathlessness to a point. However I still feel exhausted all the time, its sort of a muscular fatigue which is the best way to describe it.
I feel really down, I have always worked, but I haven't been able to make it as far as the bus stop since Feb. I feel like there is nothing to look forward to and that it would be better for everyone if I just went now instead of hanging about, if I did, my Mrs would be in a better financial situation and I wouldn't want any of the family being lumbered with looking after/worrying about me. I told the GP how I was feeling and he referred me to Inclusion Matters.
I just had a telephone assessment from them and they are sending me for a one to one session with a counselor (and gave me the number for the Samaritans, but I'm too much of a coward to do away with myself)