Embarrassing. I'm used to Everton letting me down, making me angry, upsetting me, even baffling me. But I was genuinely embarrassed after that. Embarrassed to go into work and talk about it.
Rafael takes a lot of the blame for his subs. Not taking off Rondon and packing the midfield was criminal. But those players....
I honestly sat there looking at the empty seats around me and was genuinely thinking about storming the pitch to do a "Nyarko." 2 things stopped me. 1, I knew I'd be banned and arrested. 2, I honestly didn't know which player I'd want to scream at first.
We have a HUGE problem at this club. From top to bottom, there's no determination to progress or become winners. This feeds down to the players. Currently, we have a mix of players who want to win (Richy etc) and players who simply don't care. Those players are a cancer to the club. they simply don't care. It's heartbreaking and frustrating in equal measures.
I feel like it's finally sunk down to the fans too. I'm in the Park End, I know it gets stick, but we used to make noise, sing and shout back at the away fans and make our feelings known. This weekend worried me, I looked around at numerous times and you wouldn't be able to tell if we were 2-1 up and 5-2 down. The majority of fans simply sat there having a chat. I'm not for a second blaming the fans, but it's worrying times that we seem to have accepted it now.