Sorry to hear of your past struggles mate … but keep the faith !! Everton are in your blood and always will be… difficult times for us right now but there’ll be good times ahead… gotta keep believing that ?Haha I've beaten homelessness and addiction my friend so Everton is small potatoes compared to them, but I just feel deflated, Everton used to be my escape from my awful life and now it's as if it's trying to mirror it. Since my wife's passing and my illness I just put more and more time into my children and the football club but now it might be leaving me too. When it rains it pours, don't even know why I'm saying this to strangers but it just feels like maybe you would all understand better. This was the club of my grandfather and my father and now I won't be able to pass it on to my grandkids, all the memories and stories.