I feel just as down and disillusioned with the club as everyone else at times, and there's days I'm very apathetic about things. But I'm not going to give up. I don't think I can. Everton are ingrained in my being and I might be feeling a lot of apathy, but it certainly doesn't mean I dont care. Anything but.
Let me put it this way - I don't think many people go the game right now because they actually want to. They either have the whole thing ingrained in them so it's basically as pre-set as turning up to work every day, or they have irrational hope that something will change. Either way, I don't see any enthusiasm whatsoever from anyone. That's the impression I get.
And it's not a "sing when you're winning" thing either. I saw the same thing at Boro when 3-1 up at half time this season - the ground was still grim. I didn't understand it at the time, but I do now.