Discussion & help on depression & mental health related issues

[COYBL25]

I had been making a bit of progress since starting counselling in May. I had three sessions and had really opened up discussing the core triggers of my anxiety and depression. We started building an action plan to tackle how to cope with these situations.

Funny enough, I did something that triggers a 10/10 anxiety phase for me three weeks ago. It has stayed with me since and has had an effect on my work and I've been drinking heavily of a weekend to help me sleep. It even ruined a trip abroad that I had been really looking forward to beforehand.

Today I've again been informed that I won't have my regular appointment with my counsellor for the fourth week running because she is 'off sick and they don't really know when she'll be back'.

I know sickness can't be avoided, and I don't really know the severity of her situation. To be off work for four weeks suggests something pretty bad has happened. Having waited since October to finally be seen, I would have at least thought I could have been seen by a stand-in.

Telling a person who has been using their service as a crutch that they don't really know when their counsellor will be back is pretty unprofessional to me.

Just thinking aloud mate, are you in a position to pay to see someone until your regular counsellor comes back ?.

 

[COYBL25]

Bit low today, haven't felt like this for a few years now and first time since I stopped meds 12 months ago.
Trouble with kids not tolerating each other that's eating me up.

If you think you're slipping again mate, I'd advise going to see your GP and possibly going back on the meds, even if it's for a short period of time, just to tide you over this difficult period.

I know it's something that you probably don't want to do, but as you mention, it's the first time you've felt this since stopping your meds 12 mths ago ?

 

[GwladysBlue]

Just thinking aloud mate, are you in a position to pay to see someone until your regular counsellor comes back ?.

I can afford it, but it isn't ideal.

I've been trying to save up to buy my own place for the past year, and some of these counsellors charge £40 p/h.

The money isn't the important thing, though. I felt comfortable in the environment I was in.

It is me phoning them up asking if she is back. They phoned me once to tell me she wouldn't be in. The week before last I turned up expecting her to be back because I heard nothing, only to be told she weren't there.

Once somebody is signed up under their care, they can't be leaving that person hanging around for weeks without any help at all. I've really needed her this past month.

 

[wbn61]

woke up again. so fed up of typing that but I feel I promised i'd do it so I carry on typing it.
it's such an effort even to log on to my laptop now and when I do I try to read the posts on this thread but I can't think of any responses to any posts. i'm just ready to go now. I have no interest in anything any more no matter how hard I try. this thread is the only effort I make and that is waning.

 

[kithnou]

woke up again. so fed up of typing that but I feel I promised i'd do it so I carry on typing it.
it's such an effort even to log on to my laptop now and when I do I try to read the posts on this thread but I can't think of any responses to any posts. i'm just ready to go now. I have no interest in anything any more no matter how hard I try. this thread is the only effort I make and that is waning.

Are things better with the family mate?

 

[wbn61]

Are things better with the family mate?

they are all ok now, everyone communicating. just normal family problems lol.

 

[kithnou]

they are all ok now, everyone communicating. just normal family problems lol.

Are you able walk around mate?

 

[COYBL25]

I can afford it, but it isn't ideal.

I've been trying to save up to buy my own place for the past year, and some of these counsellors charge £40 p/h.

The money isn't the important thing, though. I felt comfortable in the environment I was in.

It is me phoning them up asking if she is back. They phoned me once to tell me she wouldn't be in. The week before last I turned up expecting her to be back because I heard nothing, only to be told she weren't there.

Once somebody is signed up under their care, they can't be leaving that person hanging around for weeks without any help at all. I've really needed her this past month.

This may sound a bit leftfield, but how about going to the gym / run / swim etc on the days that you normally see her, whilst she's off sick ?.

It would give you a bit of purpose rather than doing nothing and feeling crap ?.

 

[COYBL25]

woke up again. so fed up of typing that but I feel I promised i'd do it so I carry on typing it.
it's such an effort even to log on to my laptop now and when I do I try to read the posts on this thread but I can't think of any responses to any posts. i'm just ready to go now. I have no interest in anything any more no matter how hard I try. this thread is the only effort I make and that is waning.

There's loads in here who are rooting for you mate and 100% interested in what you have to say. Please come on if and when you feel able to ?. You'll never know how much you are helping others just by coming on here, even the lurkers who may not post x

 

[wbn61]

Are you able walk around mate?

just about. going to try and go to hospital tomorrow so see how I manage then.

 

[wbn61]

There's loads in here who are rooting for you mate and 100% interested in what you have to say. Please come on if and when you feel able to ?. You'll never know how much you are helping others just by coming on here, even the lurkers who may not post x

I am trying. not given up completely just finding it hard to fight.

 

[BiggyRat]

Telling a person who has been using their service as a crutch that they don't really know when their counsellor will be back is pretty unprofessional to me.

Can't help but agree with you there. The service they provide cannot be simply put on hold. You'd think they'd have some form of back up plan in these instances.

Anyway, if you feel you do need to get some help, I'd be getting them to recommend someone & line it up for you. Let the Receptionist know how much you've come to rely on them & will continue to do so but right now, you need to talk!

 

[BiggyRat]

woke up again. so fed up of typing that but I feel I promised i'd do it so I carry on typing it.
it's such an effort even to log on to my laptop now and when I do I try to read the posts on this thread but I can't think of any responses to any posts. i'm just ready to go now. I have no interest in anything any more no matter how hard I try. this thread is the only effort I make and that is waning.

You have inadvertently taught us so much about ourselves despite not intending to. I read your posts and, at the very least, it emphasises perspective but more importantly, it makes me evaluate where I am now, & where I am going. I don't mean to load you up with any more 'issues' at the moment but you really have helped others just by sharing.

Years ago, I had my palm read in Singapore. It was uncannily accurate in a number of areas that I won't bore you with but I will let you know two of her predictions. One was that I'd never be wealthy...(#@$%!!!!)...and the other was that I'd live to 91. Now, apart from taking out Life Insurance when I'm 90, that number has made me feel somewhat bullet proof. Sure, it's a bit silly to accept the word of an elderly Chinese Lady who didn't speak English but I realised that I hadn't been concerned with my own mortality because of it. Hell, that's 40 years away! What it didn't predict was the quality of those 91 years.

Now, how does that relate to your posts? Well, perspective and context. If what she said in Singapore is all true, then there's a fair chance that the way I have treated myself these past few years could lead to the worst case scenario, low quality of life. You see, I had assumed the number was correct, but not the condition I would arrive at that number.

Some will recall my own workplace issues and the fact that although out of the toxic environment, I'm still affected by it somewhat. I don't think I'm in a spiral down, but I feel I've 'bottomed out' but haven't done anything that would help me climb back into the sunlight. Please forgive my indulgence but I have read many of your posts & I can see how they have slowly changed. It is hard to read despite not knowing you personally & not being able to simply pop over for a chat to do something...anything.

What you have reminded me of is that fact that if I do go on to 91, then I can't simply coast in from here. I have time to correct my course & use those 'alleged' years ahead.

Again, please forgive me if this is too close to the bone or harsh, but I'm speaking from the heart & avoiding any edits.

I just wanted you to know...

 

[COYBL25]

You have inadvertently taught us so much about ourselves despite not intending to. I read your posts and, at the very least, it emphasises perspective but more importantly, it makes me evaluate where I am now, & where I am going. I don't mean to load you up with any more 'issues' at the moment but you really have helped others just by sharing.

Years ago, I had my palm read in Singapore. It was uncannily accurate in a number of areas that I won't bore you with but I will let you know two of her predictions. One was that I'd never be wealthy...(#@$%!!!!)...and the other was that I'd live to 91. Now, apart from taking out Life Insurance when I'm 90, that number has made me feel somewhat bullet proof. Sure, it's a bit silly to accept the word of an elderly Chinese Lady who didn't speak English but I realised that I hadn't been concerned with my own mortality because of it. Hell, that's 40 years away! What it didn't predict was the quality of those 91 years.

Now, how does that relate to your posts? Well, perspective and context. If what she said in Singapore is all true, then there's a fair chance that the way I have treated myself these past few years could lead to the worst case scenario, low quality of life. You see, I had assumed the number was correct, but not the condition I would arrive at that number.

Some will recall my own workplace issues and the fact that although out of the toxic environment, I'm still affected by it somewhat. I don't think I'm in a spiral down, but I feel I've 'bottomed out' but haven't done anything that would help me climb back into the sunlight. Please forgive my indulgence but I have read many of your posts & I can see how they have slowly changed. It is hard to read despite not knowing you personally & not being able to simply pop over for a chat to do something...anything.

What you have reminded me of is that fact that if I do go on to 91, then I can't simply coast in from here. I have time to correct my course & use those 'alleged' years ahead.

Again, please forgive me if this is too close to the bone or harsh, but I'm speaking from the heart & avoiding any edits.

I just wanted you to know...

He's an inspiration to all on here mate and I honestly don't know if I'd be as brave under the circumstances.

I'm with you, I really wish I there was something more I could do.

 

[Tubey]

I don't want to start a thread to draw further attention to the scummy rag, so I'll just post in here.

The exposing of Gazza, a man with clear mental health issues, by The S*n today is an absolute disgrace - if I could swear to emphasise it, I would.

"Britain's most popular paper"... says it all about this country. Disgusting.