Discussion & help on depression & mental health related issues

[Frank Gallagher]

I'm a bit lost at the moment. Starting to really feel terrible again on what seems like a daily basis. It's weird, speaking about it though. I've mentioned some problems before, felt somewhat better for a bit, maybe a couple of months, and then I slump all over again for a decent period of time. At the minute my anxiety and more is through the roof...

I'm literally not consistent. I've gone from happy-go-lucky to barely being able to get out of bed/the house all day again and being miserable, my mood can go from 100-0 in what feels like just a moment. And it does this over, and over, and over again. Sometimes weeks, sometimes months, sometimes hours...

I literally have 0 interest in the things I actually like at the minute, comics, drawing, gaming... I just can't bring myself to partake in these activities and if I eventually do, they are put away or turned off before I've even done anything of note. The only thing I even get partially excited for is Everton...

After finishing Uni, and regretting going by the way... I took a job I didn't want, as I find it hard to say no to people. I've grown into the role however and actually found myself enjoying it for a while, to the point where my boss offered me a management role for my performance. Since that, I've tried to condition myself into that state of mind and it's not really me. (Not only that, but a salary etc doesn't suit me whatsoever and I'll almost certainly be taken advantage of, if I haven't already been... like every other place I ever worked). I would leave tomorrow if I actually had something better lined up, but I don't and thus this will dictate my life for a while.

Anyway... I've found myself doing anything at all to take me away from reality, I guess. Drinking, smoking bud way too much etc etc. I enjoy it, but not for the reasons I should or want to.

I mentioned to my mother about the feelings today and didn't really get a response. I know that she's aware something's wrong because this isn't the first time I've mentioned it, and she's usually quick to cotton on - but today nothing and it made me feel even worse because I needed a response, or something... anything at all. I don't even know what it is I need. My parents are old fashioned though. My colleagues weren't so blind however, and I ended up opening up to my boss about a few things as he privately called me to one side... who went on to retract the managerial position proposal and offered some generally sound advice. This could really be seen as a blessing due to my feelings over the work and the situation... but nevertheless it made me feel worse, again. It's very hard to put on a smile and a brace face all of the time just for other people's sakes, too, which I've now done in another period of life for too long..

Since my long term ex some years ago now I've found myself being shat on by every opportunity, and that certainly hasn't helped. That being said I won't bore any of you further with my past relationships or anything, but I've put so much energy into making things better for other people that I think I've lost myself. I don't know who I am anymore, nor can I see how things will turn around. I actually feel guilty writing any of this, because some people in far worse conditions etc would long to have my place in life, no doubt.

Even in this writing I have really struggled to say what I actually intended, and have probably ended up just ranting.

Meh :/

sounds like the same hole I found myself in mate. ive been like it for years, and it was only due to an intervention from a mate of mine (going to see my parents) that I actually had to acknowledge it and seek some help.

this was only 3 weeks ago, i went and spoke to the doctor, something i have never done before in my life, the thought of it was worse than actually going and doing it.

from what you've described it sounds like you have very similar issues to me.

i have been prescribed some anti-depressants, something ive always been sceptical of to be honest, and I'm 3 weeks in to them now. i was told they can take up to 3 weeks to have an effect, and to be fair i found the first 2 weeks absolutely horrific on them, almost like my mind was trying to reject them or something, BUT these last couple days ive kinda started feeling a bit perkier. infact I'm up before midday, typing out this response, this alone shows something must be working as i hardly got out of bed the last month or so!

i would recommend making an appointment with your GP. don't think its a trivial matter, as you can not beat it or just snap out of it, things just get worse. it took me to get to rock bottom basically before i did anything about it.

its very early days for me, but I'm feeling more optimistic about things already as I'm facing up to my demons at long last and trying to recify my self properly and not just trying to brush things under the carpet.

let me know if you need any more advice.

@COYB25 is full of great info too.

 

[COYBL25]

I'm a bit lost at the moment. Starting to really feel terrible again on what seems like a daily basis. It's weird, speaking about it though. I've mentioned some problems before, felt somewhat better for a bit, maybe a couple of months, and then I slump all over again for a decent period of time. At the minute my anxiety and more is through the roof...

I'm literally not consistent. I've gone from happy-go-lucky to barely being able to get out of bed/the house all day again and being miserable, my mood can go from 100-0 in what feels like just a moment. And it does this over, and over, and over again. Sometimes weeks, sometimes months, sometimes hours...

I literally have 0 interest in the things I actually like at the minute, comics, drawing, gaming... I just can't bring myself to partake in these activities and if I eventually do, they are put away or turned off before I've even done anything of note. The only thing I even get partially excited for is Everton...

After finishing Uni, and regretting going by the way... I took a job I didn't want, as I find it hard to say no to people. I've grown into the role however and actually found myself enjoying it for a while, to the point where my boss offered me a management role for my performance. Since that, I've tried to condition myself into that state of mind and it's not really me. (Not only that, but a salary etc doesn't suit me whatsoever and I'll almost certainly be taken advantage of, if I haven't already been... like every other place I ever worked). I would leave tomorrow if I actually had something better lined up, but I don't and thus this will dictate my life for a while.

Anyway... I've found myself doing anything at all to take me away from reality, I guess. Drinking, smoking bud way too much etc etc. I enjoy it, but not for the reasons I should or want to.

I mentioned to my mother about the feelings today and didn't really get a response. I know that she's aware something's wrong because this isn't the first time I've mentioned it, and she's usually quick to cotton on - but today nothing and it made me feel even worse because I needed a response, or something... anything at all. I don't even know what it is I need. My parents are old fashioned though. My colleagues weren't so blind however, and I ended up opening up to my boss about a few things as he privately called me to one side... who went on to retract the managerial position proposal and offered some generally sound advice. This could really be seen as a blessing due to my feelings over the work and the situation... but nevertheless it made me feel worse, again. It's very hard to put on a smile and a brace face all of the time just for other people's sakes, too, which I've now done in another period of life for too long..

Since my long term ex some years ago now I've found myself being shat on by every opportunity, and that certainly hasn't helped. That being said I won't bore any of you further with my past relationships or anything, but I've put so much energy into making things better for other people that I think I've lost myself. I don't know who I am anymore, nor can I see how things will turn around. I actually feel guilty writing any of this, because some people in far worse conditions etc would long to have my place in life, no doubt.

Even in this writing I have really struggled to say what I actually intended, and have probably ended up just ranting.

Meh :/

Hi mate.

You make no mention of having been seen by any form of Health Care Professional ?.

Have you seen anyone / if not go and see your GP asap.

If you tell your Doctor the same information, that you've written so eloquently in your post, I can guarantee that you'll be started on anti depressants.

As @-wizard- says they'll take a few weeks to kick in.

They aren't a magic bullet, but what they'll do is make you feel some semblance of normality again. That'll give you a platform to start getting better.

I can only speak for myself, but I find aerobic excercise wonderful for combatting my own problems, due to the feel good chemicals released by the brain during and after excercise.

Your manager sounds like a good guy and sounds like someone who could really help get through your work situation. Don't make any decisions about work whilst you're feeling like this mate, as your judgement is clouded at the mo by the bad stuff going on in your head.

I always recommend this forum too :

Mentalhealth.org

NHS run and you'll find loads on there who are in the exact same situation as you mate.

Ps : Don't ever feel guilty about posting anything on here mate, as your problems are relevant to you and we're all in this together to help each other.

Who knows when you get better, you may be able to help others on here too x

 

[Abraders]

@-wizard- @COYBL25

Thanks for the replies you two.

I haven't been to a GP or anything yet, no. I've always shrugged it off naively thinking this just wouldn't be happening to me and that I could overcome any of this on my own.

My ex was depressed, to a degree I probably haven't reached myself yet, but in many different ways. I seem to express a lot more anxiety and things than she ever did, for what seems like longer periods at a time.

I've always considered myself to be quite self aware. It's crazy though, it's now been at least a few years feeling this up & down, so maybe it's time to be more proactive about it.

My boss actually suggested I may be bi-polar after I spoke to him. Now personally I am unsure, as looking into what comes under bi-polar fits the bill in some ways but I'd hate to diagnose myself with that and try and force the situation at all. Manic episodes and such, I'm not sure how they work or how they can last etc to be classified under that category of mental health... better left to the doctors to judge.

Once I find the time, perhaps this week, when I have some time off I will get myself down there.

 

[COYBL25]

@-wizard- @COYBL25

Thanks for the replies you two.

I haven't been to a GP or anything yet, no. I've always shrugged it off naively thinking this just wouldn't be happening to me and that I could overcome any of this on my own.

My ex was depressed, to a degree I probably haven't reached myself yet, but in many different ways. I seem to express a lot more anxiety and things than she ever did, for what seems like longer periods at a time.

I've always considered myself to be quite self aware. It's crazy though, it's now been at least a few years feeling this up & down, so maybe it's time to be more proactive about it.

My boss actually suggested I may be bi-polar after I spoke to him. Now personally I am unsure, as looking into what comes under bi-polar fits the bill in some ways but I'd hate to diagnose myself with that and try and force the situation at all. Manic episodes and such, I'm not sure how they work or how they can last etc to be classified under that category of mental health... better left to the doctors to judge.

Once I find the time, perhaps this week, when I have some time off I will get myself down there.

I'm not an expert, but it sounds to me that you have anxiety / depression problems rather than bipolar.

The ups and downs are the chemicals in your brain which are out of kilter.

Go to your GP, be brutally honest, as the more info they have the more they have to work with.

Keep us posted mate x

 

[Kenshin]

I'm a bit lost at the moment. Starting to really feel terrible again on what seems like a daily basis. It's weird, speaking about it though. I've mentioned some problems before, felt somewhat better for a bit, maybe a couple of months, and then I slump all over again for a decent period of time. At the minute my anxiety and more is through the roof...

I'm literally not consistent. I've gone from happy-go-lucky to barely being able to get out of bed/the house all day again and being miserable, my mood can go from 100-0 in what feels like just a moment. And it does this over, and over, and over again. Sometimes weeks, sometimes months, sometimes hours...

I literally have 0 interest in the things I actually like at the minute, comics, drawing, gaming... I just can't bring myself to partake in these activities and if I eventually do, they are put away or turned off before I've even done anything of note. The only thing I even get partially excited for is Everton...

After finishing Uni, and regretting going by the way... I took a job I didn't want, as I find it hard to say no to people. I've grown into the role however and actually found myself enjoying it for a while, to the point where my boss offered me a management role for my performance. Since that, I've tried to condition myself into that state of mind and it's not really me. (Not only that, but a salary etc doesn't suit me whatsoever and I'll almost certainly be taken advantage of, if I haven't already been... like every other place I ever worked). I would leave tomorrow if I actually had something better lined up, but I don't and thus this will dictate my life for a while.

Anyway... I've found myself doing anything at all to take me away from reality, I guess. Drinking, smoking bud way too much etc etc. I enjoy it, but not for the reasons I should or want to.

I mentioned to my mother about the feelings today and didn't really get a response. I know that she's aware something's wrong because this isn't the first time I've mentioned it, and she's usually quick to cotton on - but today nothing and it made me feel even worse because I needed a response, or something... anything at all. I don't even know what it is I need. My parents are old fashioned though. My colleagues weren't so blind however, and I ended up opening up to my boss about a few things as he privately called me to one side... who went on to retract the managerial position proposal and offered some generally sound advice. This could really be seen as a blessing due to my feelings over the work and the situation... but nevertheless it made me feel worse, again. It's very hard to put on a smile and a brace face all of the time just for other people's sakes, too, which I've now done in another period of life for too long..

Since my long term ex some years ago now I've found myself being shat on by every opportunity, and that certainly hasn't helped. That being said I won't bore any of you further with my past relationships or anything, but I've put so much energy into making things better for other people that I think I've lost myself. I don't know who I am anymore, nor can I see how things will turn around. I actually feel guilty writing any of this, because some people in far worse conditions etc would long to have my place in life, no doubt.

Even in this writing I have really struggled to say what I actually intended, and have probably ended up just ranting.

Meh :/

Hi Abraders.

What i don't think i can offer any advice on is depression but i know what you are going through. It sounds to me on top of other things you find yourself in a rut of sorts in life and that is negatively effecting your mind into seeing other things negatively. You hate your job and therefore project negative thoughts about it, if you wish to leave then that will hang over you quite a bit. This will dwell on your mind for quite some time and down your mood quite a bit, especially in a 5 day working week, not being happy to go to work is going to have a negative effect on you.

you mentioned your ex a few times, i would imagine that as a knock on effect that this plays on your mind also. you have not revealed any other details regarding this but i get the impression that being single right now after a long term relationship and not falling into another one is also having a negative effect on you mentally so again you project a negative outlook on your life.

In terms of interests not holding you attention, this will be because of the negative mind set you find yourself in. Because you put yourself in this negative bubble so much the idea of enjoying yourself with something you are used to enjoying then feels empty and a waste of time. Even if you aren't directly connecting all of the dots at the time it then makes it feel like a waste of time and therefore your enjoyment then lowers from it.

I have a feeling there is more information than you have shared and i base this advice on what you have said. but i do think that maybe rather than fall into the depression or bi polar avenues and clinically diagnose yourself, just going and having someone to talk to about it is what you need to at least deal with the negative emotions? From what you said about your mum it sounded like you were putting it out there and wanted that feedback or reassurance from her and got nothing in return. So go and find someone to talk to, whether it be a Councillor or similar service just to get things off your chest and essentially lay it all out so you can hopefully then start to turn the negatives into positives one by one once you realise them all.

Sorry if any of that seems a bit out of line, hopefully just trying to pass on some advice to you.

 

[Abraders]

Hi Abraders.

What i don't think i can offer any advice on is depression but i know what you are going through. It sounds to me on top of other things you find yourself in a rut of sorts in life and that is negatively effecting your mind into seeing other things negatively. You hate your job and therefore project negative thoughts about it, if you wish to leave then that will hang over you quite a bit. This will dwell on your mind for quite some time and down your mood quite a bit, especially in a 5 day working week, not being happy to go to work is going to have a negative effect on you.

you mentioned your ex a few times, i would imagine that as a knock on effect that this plays on your mind also. you have not revealed any other details regarding this but i get the impression that being single right now after a long term relationship and not falling into another one is also having a negative effect on you mentally so again you project a negative outlook on your life.

In terms of interests not holding you attention, this will be because of the negative mind set you find yourself in. Because you put yourself in this negative bubble so much the idea of enjoying yourself with something you are used to enjoying then feels empty and a waste of time. Even if you aren't directly connecting all of the dots at the time it then makes it feel like a waste of time and therefore your enjoyment then lowers from it.

I have a feeling there is more information than you have shared and i base this advice on what you have said. but i do think that maybe rather than fall into the depression or bi polar avenues and clinically diagnose yourself, just going and having someone to talk to about it is what you need to at least deal with the negative emotions? From what you said about your mum it sounded like you were putting it out there and wanted that feedback or reassurance from her and got nothing in return. So go and find someone to talk to, whether it be a Councillor or similar service just to get things off your chest and essentially lay it all out so you can hopefully then start to turn the negatives into positives one by one once you realise them all.

Sorry if any of that seems a bit out of line, hopefully just trying to pass on some advice to you.

Not out of line at all dude, I appreciate all the responses.

Pretty much everything feels like a waste of time to me at the minute, it isn't the best outlook to have.. I'm very cautious sometimes of not expressing these feelings to other people as a sort of defence, but for only so long can I hold it in most of the time.

I'm quite impressed you could tell I was holding back on a few bits of information, but as I previously mentioned I didn't really want to continue boring you all with my life story, especially in terms of any previous relationships.

I will certainly be looking into visiting my GP and see what their conclusions might be on the situation. I think I'd find it a bit difficult to speak to a stranger about all the issues mind... however plenty of people in this forum alone have spoken of the benefits of doing so...

Something I haven't mentioned, as I'm not sure if it's correlated at all, is sleep. I struggle with sleep so much, I am permanently tired and it takes its toll. It's not even just being unable to sleep soundly, though, I get horrendous nightmares which don't exactly set me up for the day very well. The previous two nights sleep I've woke up drenched in sweat and fear from inescapable nightmares. This is something which occurs particularly often for me, at least more than 60% of the time - not helped by the dream suppression that smoking herb tends to bring, as when I don't the dreams come back so vividly.

 

[COYBL25]

Not out of line at all dude, I appreciate all the responses.

Pretty much everything feels like a waste of time to me at the minute, it isn't the best outlook to have.. I'm very cautious sometimes of not expressing these feelings to other people as a sort of defence, but for only so long can I hold it in most of the time.

I'm quite impressed you could tell I was holding back on a few bits of information, but as I previously mentioned I didn't really want to continue boring you all with my life story, especially in terms of any previous relationships.

I will certainly be looking into visiting my GP and see what their conclusions might be on the situation. I think I'd find it a bit difficult to speak to a stranger about all the issues mind... however plenty of people in this forum alone have spoken of the benefits of doing so...

Something I haven't mentioned, as I'm not sure if it's correlated at all, is sleep. I struggle with sleep so much, I am permanently tired and it takes its toll. It's not even just being unable to sleep soundly, though, I get horrendous nightmares which don't exactly set me up for the day very well. The previous two nights sleep I've woke up drenched in sweat and fear from inescapable nightmares. This is something which occurs particularly often for me, at least more than 60% of the time - not helped by the dream suppression that smoking herb tends to bring, as when I don't the dreams come back so vividly.

I was just going to post about your sleep mate, as it can be a great indicator.

Have a look at - Cortisol.

This is a naturally occurring chemical in the brain, that's released slowly as part of the waking process.

However when it's also released as part of the " fight or flight " along with adrenaline.

If you're in an anxious state all the time, you're brain can kind of get stuck in a fight or flight mode all the time, producing Cortisol, hence the struggle to get to sleep / nightmares / waking all the time.

Insomnia goes hand in hand with depression / anxiety problems mate.

Here's how I manage my insomnia :

Black out blinds.

Sleep mask - tricks the brain into thinking it's still night.

Nothing electrical in the room, that's switched on - other than the clock. ( it's thought the current interferes with sleep )

No clock visible - stops you looking at the clock all the time.

Only use the room for sleeping - your subconscious sees the room as only for sleeping.


Vitamin B12 / magnesium / valerian root - tablets ( not to be taken with prescription meds ).

Knock the ale in the head - I bet your mood after drinking is horrendous ? ( Cortisol again ).

Sounds like hippy dippy rubbish, but I've gone from four hours sleep to six / seven, by adopting these things as part of my life.

Cortisol is the baddie in all this I suspect !

 

[Prevenger17]

I was just going to post about your sleep mate, as it can be a great indicator.

Have a look at - Cortisol.

This is a naturally occurring chemical in the brain, that's released slowly as part of the waking process.

However when it's also released as part of the " fight or flight " along with adrenaline.

If you're in an anxious state all the time, you're brain can kind of get stuck in a fight or flight mode all the time, producing Cortisol, hence the struggle to get to sleep / nightmares / waking all the time.

Insomnia goes hand in hand with depression / anxiety problems mate.

Here's how I manage my insomnia :

Black out blinds.

Sleep mask - tricks the brain into thinking it's still night.

Nothing electrical in the room, that's switched on - other than the clock. ( it's thought the current interferes with sleep )

No clock visible - stops you looking at the clock all the time.

Only use the room for sleeping - your subconscious sees the room as only for sleeping.


Vitamin B12 / magnesium / valerian root - tablets ( not to be taken with prescription meds ).

Knock the ale in the head - I bet your mood after drinking is horrendous ? ( Cortisol again ).

Sounds like hippy dippy rubbish, but I've gone from four hours sleep to six / seven, by adopting these things as part of my life.

Cortisol is the baddie in all this I suspect !

Good advice all of this. I might add that charging your smartphone in a different room at night and trying not to look at an LCD screen before going to bed is generally good for sleep (leave at least a half hour window). A lot of modern sleep pattern problems are caused by advancing technology that we have absorbed too quickly into our lives, and are ill-equipped mentally to manage. Smartphones and tablets and computers are addictive and should be treated like addictive things.

 

[Kenshin]

Not out of line at all dude, I appreciate all the responses.

Pretty much everything feels like a waste of time to me at the minute, it isn't the best outlook to have.. I'm very cautious sometimes of not expressing these feelings to other people as a sort of defence, but for only so long can I hold it in most of the time.

I'm quite impressed you could tell I was holding back on a few bits of information, but as I previously mentioned I didn't really want to continue boring you all with my life story, especially in terms of any previous relationships.

I will certainly be looking into visiting my GP and see what their conclusions might be on the situation. I think I'd find it a bit difficult to speak to a stranger about all the issues mind... however plenty of people in this forum alone have spoken of the benefits of doing so...

Something I haven't mentioned, as I'm not sure if it's correlated at all, is sleep. I struggle with sleep so much, I am permanently tired and it takes its toll. It's not even just being unable to sleep soundly, though, I get horrendous nightmares which don't exactly set me up for the day very well. The previous two nights sleep I've woke up drenched in sweat and fear from inescapable nightmares. This is something which occurs particularly often for me, at least more than 60% of the time - not helped by the dream suppression that smoking herb tends to bring, as when I don't the dreams come back so vividly.

To be perfectly honest, smoking cannabis and sleep issues will be directly connected. I know whenever i have had a smoke then I have less restful sleep to the point of tossing and turning throughout the night, so i guess it is a measure and counter measure, you need both but only one wins in that scenario. I would honestly suggest cutting down when you can and look to have a good sleep every once in a while. Perhaps if you smoke daily or close to that then to maybe on a Friday night not do so and go to bed with a clear head. I know it sounds minor and without knowing every single detail then it may be wide of the mark that but having a good sleep even once a week will have a positive effect and perhaps give you a fresher head over the weekend?

In terms of feeling like nothing is worth your time then that sounds more like delving more into mental health areas of things which is beyond my advice sadly but reading through others can and have advised on that front so i won't feel too bad in not being able to offer answers there.

I feel you paint a picture without the colours added, which is why i know there is more to the story. there are lines in your post but they do not reveal the true picture if that makes sense? I think once you mentally colour it in to yourself you will see things more clearly and be able to take control of them again. If this thread is not the place for you to do that then don't feel pressured to say anything more, but do so to a trained professional who can give you face to face support. the bigger picture may well be mental health areas and this is where health care will really benefit you as it will have done others, so please do look into that.

As i mentioned before from what you say it does sound like you create the negativity in your head and this is what will be the weight in your head which has left you not sure on how you feel. This will be something you have to deal with yourself but certainly get the support with it because that will go a long way in helping you. As much as you have to deal with these things you do not have to do it alone. You have help out there, people experts in helping people who feel like you and will do without a seconds thought. You have blues on here who will stand beside you also and listen to what you have to say and offer their own advice. sadly i can offer you relate-able advice here but i can only suggest things.

I hope you do come back on this thread soon and tell us how much better you are feeling

 

[big bobs beard]

Have always read this thread and occasionally post a bit of advice, but can I on behalf of everyone thank @COYBL25 for the time, effort and most of all supportive, caring and non- judgemental advice he gives to this thread. Not sure what you do for a living mate but you should be a counsellor. I am sure you have helped people more than you will eve know.

 

[COYBL25]

Have always read this thread and occasionally post a bit of advice, but can I on behalf of everyone thank @COYBL25 for the time, effort and most of all supportive, caring and non- judgemental advice he gives to this thread. Not sure what you do for a living mate but you should be a counsellor. I am sure you have helped people more than you will eve know.

Thanks mate.

Helping others helps me if that makes sense.

It can happen to anyone of us at any time.

Every single person who comes on here helps in their own way, even if they don't know it x

 

[Frank Gallagher]

Thanks mate.

Helping others helps me if that makes sense.

It can happen to anyone of us at any time.

Every single person who comes on here helps in their own way, even if they don't know it x

to be fair, you have reassured me like you wouldn't believe. its good to know that there are decent folk about. thanks @COYB25

 

[COYBL25]

to be fair, you have reassured me like you wouldn't believe. its good to know that there are decent folk about. thanks @COYB25

You know what the hardest part is mate ? - accepting your not well and it's nothing to be ashamed of.

If you think about it logically, why shouldn't your head break ?

It's the most complex part of the whole body, so there's a chance it could go wrong every now and again.

You probably hadn't realised, but you already sound more chipper than you did when you first posted in here.

That's a matter of weeks.

Just keep it going x

 

[Frank Gallagher]

You know what the hardest part is mate ? - accepting your not well and it's nothing to be ashamed of.

If you think about it logically, why shouldn't your head break ?

It's the most complex part of the whole body, so there's a chance it could go wrong every now and again.

You probably hadn't realised, but you already sound more chipper than you did when you first posted in here.

That's a matter of weeks.

Just keep it going x

I was so down the first 2 weeks, I think that was born out of 'being found out' that I have been suffering with a major problem but just been brushing it under the carpet, and being made to face it head on. thankfully the meds have kicked in during this 3rd week and the last 3 days have seen a huge change in my state of mind. its literally like I'm more alert and optimistic about things all of a sudden.

I'm going to Barcelona tomorrow for 3 days with my dad, this was arranged before Christmas, and last week I was going to back out as I felt there was noway I could face going and doing anything like that. But I cant wait to go now. the change is quite significant. I'm a little bit worried incase it just turn out that I'm having a good couple of days, ive been so down for 3 or 4 years it feels really weird to actually being able to function normally again.

little things like getting up at a good time, 8am and not 6pm makes you feel a lot better about yourself too. I couldn't do it before I started these sertraline.

I go back this time next week to see the doc.

 

[COYBL25]

I was so down the first 2 weeks, I think that was born out of 'being found out' that I have been suffering with a major problem but just been brushing it under the carpet, and being made to face it head on. thankfully the meds have kicked in during this 3rd week and the last 3 days have seen a huge change in my state of mind. its literally like I'm more alert and optimistic about things all of a sudden.

I'm going to Barcelona tomorrow for 3 days with my dad, this was arranged before Christmas, and last week I was going to back out as I felt there was noway I could face going and doing anything like that. But I cant wait to go now. the change is quite significant. I'm a little bit worried incase it just turn out that I'm having a good couple of days, ive been so down for 3 or 4 years it feels really weird to actually being able to function normally again.

little things like getting up at a good time, 8am and not 6pm makes you feel a lot better about yourself too. I couldn't do it before I started these sertraline.

I go back this time next week to see the doc.

Well in mate.

What they've actually done is made you feel as close to normal as possible again.

It can be a bit scary at first, as you get so used it feeling like crap, that you become used to it and accept it as your fate.