Not a problem.
I really don't want to come across as a wise arse on this but a couple of thoughts:
The best results come through brutal honesty with whoever you speak to. A lot of young lads feel they have to put a gloss on their symptoms to avoid coming across as weak. If those symptoms include strong thoughts of self harm, this needs to be spelled out graphically,including any plans that may have been made NOT so that people can wrap the person in cotton wool but because the revelation helps the psychiatric team to place you on the scale of seriousness. I've highlighted this because that position on the scale determines the amount of support you'll receive.
"Rumination" has been talked about on here at some length and one or two people have noted the value of distraction. It's quite important for a couple of reasons, one of them being this: serious depression & rumination can slide in to delusion & hallucination. By "delusion", I don't mean a person will suddenly think they're Donald Duck or whatever (though s/he may!) but paranoia regarding other people's motives, plots and plans etc. Really not a good place to be.
So do a bit of washing & ironing; or cook; start the great novel; walk a neighbour's dog. Anything and everything till you can present your ass in A & E.