Christmas is a terrible time for those suffering from depression. After all everyone is supposed to have a wonderful time, that's what the marketeers would have you believe.
Must be very difficult if you are in that position, so to anyone here, remember there is always someone to talk to, professionals, friends or even here on GOT. Things can improve, taking the first step in talking to someone is the hardest, but after that it gets better.
Don't suffer alone there's plenty of good people to share your problems with and help you back to full health. Depression is an illness, nothing to be ashamed of, but like all illnesses can only get better if diagnosed and treated.
Good luck, best wishes, and do something to make this Christmas special for yourself and the people around you.
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