In the aftermath of the win over Chelsea, I was absolutely buzzing about the semi-final.
Take into account the crumble against West Ham, the capitulation to Arsenal, miserable effort at OT, and - at best - below average performances against Watford, Palace and Southampton, now we've been dismantled, battered and thoroughly embarrassed and ridiculed by the RS... I deeply regret admitting to having no confidence for the outcome on Saturday if RM is still in charge.
I walked my dog at 5.30 this morning and found myself considering not going - that's how bad things have become under this manager and his simply awful reign.
For me, the very first warning sign that went unheeded was the 4-0 tonking the RS gave us in his first season, and the second major sign was the giving away of two goals in the last five mins pf the first home game against Arsenal last season.
Blips we thought didn't we?
But they weren't, they were the first symptoms of a failing philosophy. The first signs that a solid defence was being/had been eroded, the first signs that one mans dream would turn into nothing short of a cancer within the club.
I will be going on Saturday and I will support the team, but for me after last night, if not before, Martinez is a blight on my life and football dreams.
If we win, he will get no praise or plaudits from me.
If we lose, he must be dismissed.
If we're humiliated and embarrassed by a poor Manu team, then with the exception of the new blood on the board, the rest should immediately sell their shares to Mr.Moshiri and go, en masse, as Everton will need a complete and total rebuild without interference and obstacles from within.
I cannot believe that Mr.Moshiri has come into our club without being fully aware of the magnitude of the project he has embarked upon, and I hope and pray he has the fortitude, strength and bloody-minded determination to bring it to fruition.