It's not depression related but it's weird none the less. Turns out my dad is coming to stay with us just after new year.
The little bit of back story is I never knew him, not since I was a baby and I always knew I had a sister from the 'other woman' but I could never find her. Online searches always came to nothing and it was a fruitless endeavour to be honest. Back in April I finally found her, and turns out not long after, through quite a funny story, I pulled up my dad's twitter account a few hours later and turns out he had tweeted me that day. I went up to meet my sister a couple of days after but have been in contact with both of them since with it not leading anywhere but niceties. My dad sent presents down for the kids the other week for Christmas and yesterday I even got a card from my nan and grandad with a message saying they have been thinking of me all these years, which knocked me back a bit.
then at 6am I had a message asking if my dad could come down to visit which is a little mad to be honest, I've said yes but it's going to be weird to have the man I've never known sat in my living room. I always wondered if I was anything like him, didn't think it would ever lead to this though. It's just mad at the minute, my mind is all over the place from joy to, well fear. I mean I'm not looking for a dad and hell he isn't planning on being one, but how to do act and deal with that? I have no resentment towards him now,,I did when I was younger but age has taught me quite a bit haha
sorry if this is out of place, just wanted to throw my crazy thoughts down somewhere because I don't know how to say them out loud to anyone.And I still have to tell my mum this later.......her words were if she ever saw him she would pinch him lol