See, Everton fans are obsessed with passion. I don't feel passion when it comes to Everton. I just feel pain and despair. I'm frightened of going to Goodison Park because I've had panic attacks. I hate talking to other fans because I feel like I'm being dragged down. All I see is people talking about how much they hate our players, they hate the team, they hate everything. I hope to G-d it doesn't affect Barkley or Lennon. I dread it when we play because I know I'll take it badly when we lose. I've self-harmed every time we've lost this season, I've still got scars from previous derbies, and I'll keep doing it unless I either switch teams or just go completely neutral. I know part of it is because I know some Liverpool fans, one of whom is in a band who I really love and look up to (they're from Liverpool, were fairly big in the 90s and are massive kopites), and they are very good at making you feel like scum for supporting Everton. Calling us bitter and obsessed. I got scared of even mentioning Liverpool in case they laid into me over it.
I wish I supported Sheffield Wednesday or Bournemouth or something. At least no-one I know could get to me. I hate how supporting Everton has become so [Poor language removed] toxic. I had more fun at Sheffield Wednesday v Millwall than I've had at an Everton match in years.