Also, did you ever try beta blockers to stop the stage fright? Always used to take them before presentations to stop the nerves kicking in.
I believe they're great, but I literally wouldn't take a panadol for a headache, I have a real "that's how they get ya" approach to drugs lol
Tbh, I only really like the creative side of it, writing things. I don't even like most live music and never have