Cheers lads. The responses have helped confirm what I probably already knew; my hardness is not at fault. Alike many here I’m extremely private and independent so seeking help is a challenge but at least, at the very least, I now recognise the problem. This might sound naive but wondering to myself: “If my condition isn’t bad enough to be diagnosed with depression then I can’t imagine how bad a spot you’ve got to be in to qualify” reinforced the reality. Its borderline treacherous how such an illness does not discriminate; no one in a million years would pick me as having, 'tis a bit of a silent killer ay. Thanks for the replies
Just keep posting mate. You've only got to go back over the last few pages to see some real positive stuff getting posted from people who were having a hard time and are starting to come though it now