Discussion & help on depression & mental health related issues

[bring back the catt]

If I lose my battle of 1st September - it's complicated - and therefore probably my connection I'll not be around much - if at all after that date - so I just want to say thanks for all your kind thoughts, help, friendship, humour. Sorry if I offended anyone.

I have always found your posts either amusing, sincere and thought provoking, or sometimes playing the middle ground to encourage debate.
I will look forward to reading them for a long while to come, as I detect a certain forth-rightness and fortitude in all you do.
Sincere good luck to you.

 

[wbn61]

If I lose my battle of 1st September - it's complicated - and therefore probably my connection I'll not be around much - if at all after that date - so I just want to say thanks for all your kind thoughts, help, friendship, humour. Sorry if I offended anyone.

sorry if you've mentioned your battle previously but not sure what it is. hope it goes well for you.
very hard to offend anyone on here so don't worry about that.

 

[wbn61]

I'm in a state again, going from happy-go-lucky to suicidal thoughts. I'm not going to act on them, so not realy to worry here, but it's... tiring. Happy one second, 5 minutes pass, feel soulless, repeat.

Just a bit of a vent here I suppose.

sorry to hear about your mood at the moment, I can empathise as I go through it as well, maybe not as frequent as you do. mine usually occurs day by day. I haven't been too bad over the weekend but today I just feel so worthless. I have so much to do but don't have the energy to do anything, I just want to go back to bed which I probably will do soon.
glad you are able to vent and hope it helped you.

 

[anjelikaferrett]

If I lose my battle of 1st September - it's complicated - and therefore probably my connection I'll not be around much - if at all after that date - so I just want to say thanks for all your kind thoughts, help, friendship, humour. Sorry if I offended anyone.

Hope it goes well x

 

[wbn61]

did a silly thing today, googled "terminal cancer, symptoms when near end". I have over half of them and probably imagine a few more lol.
that will teach me to be nosey. but to be honest, before I even looked I felt lousy, different to my usual days, that's what prompted me to look it up. just feeling down today so probably talking nonsense.

 

[Groucho]

did a silly thing today, googled "terminal cancer, symptoms when near end". I have over half of them and probably imagine a few more lol.
that will teach me to be nosey. but to be honest, before I even looked I felt lousy, different to my usual days, that's what prompted me to look it up. just feeling down today so probably talking nonsense.

Never Google anything.

 

[Groucho]

did a silly thing today, googled "terminal cancer, symptoms when near end". I have over half of them and probably imagine a few more lol.
that will teach me to be nosey. but to be honest, before I even looked I felt lousy, different to my usual days, that's what prompted me to look it up. just feeling down today so probably talking nonsense.

Hang on y'big wazzock, yer terminal!!

What on earth are you making yourself feel WORSE for?

 

[Deleted member 28206]

did a silly thing today, googled "terminal cancer, symptoms when near end". I have over half of them and probably imagine a few more lol.
that will teach me to be nosey. but to be honest, before I even looked I felt lousy, different to my usual days, that's what prompted me to look it up. just feeling down today so probably talking nonsense.

Never google it mate, it's ALWAYS cancer lol

 

[Deleted member 28206]

Discovered this today. https://www.elefriends.org.uk/

 

[wbn61]

Never Google anything.

http://giphy.com/gifs/matt-smith-eleventh-doctor-sorry-OyqumBaCKRcXe
not got the hang of it yet

 

[DualityNSNO]

Gonna do a big quote again...

Hmmm. Time to speak with a professional maybe mate?

It might be. I spoke to a friend of mine for an hour or so this morning and he was very encouraging and understanding.

I also know I can call NHS24 here and get to see a GP, which I might do soon.

Have you been working mad hours or drinking a bit more than usual mate ?

Could be time to take the foot off the gas or head home for a bit ?

I've been working ridiculous hours but at least it gets me out the house a bit to be fair. And the first drink I've had for ages was 2 beers yesterday and felt fine, cuz they were both with food and 'social'.

How long have you felt like this mate?

Years to be honest. It goes away for a while, comes back full force, repeat ad infinitum.

sorry to hear about your mood at the moment, I can empathise as I go through it as well, maybe not as frequent as you do. mine usually occurs day by day. I haven't been too bad over the weekend but today I just feel so worthless. I have so much to do but don't have the energy to do anything, I just want to go back to bed which I probably will do soon.
glad you are able to vent and hope it helped you.

I'm the same really. Just waking up now and that's only because I have to go to work.

And yeah, it helps, so I'm thankful for this thread

If I lose my battle of 1st September - it's complicated - and therefore probably my connection I'll not be around much - if at all after that date - so I just want to say thanks for all your kind thoughts, help, friendship, humour. Sorry if I offended anyone.

Doubt you've ever offended anyone to be fair.

Best of luck mate, hope it all goes well!

 

[blueloon]

http://giphy.com/gifs/matt-smith-eleventh-doctor-sorry-OyqumBaCKRcXe
not got the hang of it yet

How about you doing something useful mate , like figuring out how to post these gifs properly ......then show me cos I haven't got a clue

 

[Goonymook]

I'm in such a place of despair right now very thankful this threads exists, even as a means to shed some of turmoil surfacing in my mind. I've written on this thread before but this time I'm going to provide further details of my plight as it seems many members of this forum are very skilled at dispensing sound and poignant counsel. A couple months ago i began a period of severe depression where my thoughts actual thought became jumbled and fractured. As this trend continued I experienced what seemed to be seizures at work. Later they were deemed to be pseudo-seizures with a undetermined cause. This lead to my doctor telling me not drive and me being put on work leave. Unable to work as driving was a key aspect of it, worked in mental health field as behavioral support aid (TSS) don't know if this position exists in the UK. i grew even more restless and distraught,constantly finding myself consumed by dread and agonizing about my life. This lead to me cutting my arms and wrists , while i consulted the crisis unit kind of like Samaritans, next thing i knew police were at my door and escorted me to the hospital in handcuffs. Yes handcuffs, as I was 302 or mandatory assigned to the mental unit by crisis. I found the experience so degrading and painful , like i was being condemned for my mental illness. Once there i spent four days in the psych ward where other than than quick discussion with the psychiartrist on a daily basis I found little comfort or treatment. It resembled more of a containment facility than an actual place to remedy my issues. After being discharged I resolved to correct my issues and seek effective counsel. Of course the day I was suppose to meet an organization for a intake, I got into traffic incident where I was at fault. I drove even though my Dr advised me not to cause i thought treatment was necessary over inaction. The person who hit me had no damage and i thought i just had a smashed door that simply could be replaced. Not so just heard from the auto body place and they informed me that impact is so severe that the car is wrecked. Already in such a precarious place i just continue to berate myself for perceived blunders and the pain continues to overwhelm me. sorry for length of my story , but if anyone could provide insight or even just provide company i would appreciate it. It. I just feel like a massive incompetent joke.

 

[JelavicBrate2]

Hello wbn61. Sorry, I had to bail out yesterday and so have only just read your post.
From your post I deduce your major problems are fatigue and lack of motivation.
The knock on effects include lack of concentration, loss of appetite, lack of energy, inability to accept change, little desire to look after oneself, general disinterest and apathy in most things, an alarming lack of consistency and constancy and continuity, and to always feel knackered due to a poor and un-refreshing sleep pattern. All disturbing and debilitating.
However, and I am no doctor, but it sounds like you have all the classic symptoms associated with a condition known as Fibromyalgia.
This condition has all the classic symptoms of Glandular Fever, but without the swollen glands, and was first recognised some years ago as ME and was commonly called Yuppie Flu.
However, Fibromyalgia is the big nasty brother of ME as it not been caused by illness. Instesd it has developed due to one being constantly run down and depressed and so can be difficult to diagnose. But once detected, NOT impossible to treat
This condition saps confidence and energy and induces a depressive condition. Plus it also has the extra burden of pains. Constant and spasmodic, and these pains attack joints rather than muscle. These pains can range from spasmodic to constant, and from twinges to severe. Symptoms can also include dizziness and nausea.
But it can be countered by anti-depressants and pain killers and motion sickness tablets. Plus, the omission from your diet, whenever possible, the avoidance of white wine, and foods with MSG (monosodium glutamate), and above all, sugar-free drinks which contain Aspartame.( Please excuse my spelling for a lot of the terms I have used, as I have spelt them the way they are pronounced).
To be honest, the removal from the diet of EVERYBODY of these killer food additives is recommended, but especially those with depressive conditions.
I apologies for the lateness of my reply and also the length of it and trust I have not come across as some know-it-all.
Above all, I hope it helps.

I've had problems with my throat for the last 4 years I had an awful throat infection that lasted for about 4 months plus another one that lasted from round June 2015 to October of the same year. I also think you should avoid lying down until at least and hour after your food in brings up stomach acid and damages your throat which has happened to me on multiple occasions in fact I still suffer problems to this day. What may seem like a throat problem is most probably if it's lasts more than 2 weeks something to do with your stomach as I have found myself a lot of times.

 

[DualityNSNO]

I'm in such a place of despair right now very thankful this threads exists, even as a means to shed some of turmoil surfacing in my mind. I've written on this thread before but this time I'm going to provide further details of my plight as it seems many members of this forum are very skilled at dispensing sound and poignant counsel. A couple months ago i began a period of severe depression where my thoughts actual thought became jumbled and fractured. As this trend continued I experienced what seemed to be seizures at work. Later they were deemed to be pseudo-seizures with a undetermined cause. This lead to my doctor telling me not drive and me being put on work leave. Unable to work as driving was a key aspect of it, worked in mental health field as behavioral support aid (TSS) don't know if this position exists in the UK. i grew even more restless and distraught,constantly finding myself consumed by dread and agonizing about my life. This lead to me cutting my arms and wrists , while i consulted the crisis unit kind of like Samaritans, next thing i knew police were at my door and escorted me to the hospital in handcuffs. Yes handcuffs, as I was 302 or mandatory assigned to the mental unit by crisis. I found the experience so degrading and painful , like i was being condemned for my mental illness. Once there i spent four days in the psych ward where other than than quick discussion with the psychiartrist on a daily basis I found little comfort or treatment. It resembled more of a containment facility than an actual place to remedy my issues. After being discharged I resolved to correct my issues and seek effective counsel. Of course the day I was suppose to meet an organization for a intake, I got into traffic incident where I was at fault. I drove even though my Dr advised me not to cause i thought treatment was necessary over inaction. The person who hit me had no damage and i thought i just had a smashed door that simply could be replaced. Not so just heard from the auto body place and they informed me that impact is so severe that the car is wrecked. Already in such a precarious place i just continue to berate myself for perceived blunders and the pain continues to overwhelm me. sorry for length of my story , but if anyone could provide insight or even just provide company i would appreciate it. It. I just feel like a massive incompetent joke.

Jesus mate, that's quite a story. Thanks for sharing (a problem shared is a problem halved after all)!

Incredibly bad handled by the authorities situation to be honest... I don't really know what to say about all that. Sorry you had to go through all that really, it sounds like it did more harm than good. Is it possible for you to see a GP about anti-depressants? I know it's a stigma and nobody likes admitting it, but I think it's the right course of action, seeing as you've done pretty much everything else I can personally think of...

Have you also tried mindfulness and things like that? Or, I know this is probably my go-to thing here, can you get a pet? I know there are organisations in the USA (where I think you said you're from? Sorry if wrong!) that provide trained 'stress dogs', as you're probably aware working in the field yourself? I know it's quite a jump, but dogs can go anywhere with you and provide you with a much needed relief when feeling down. I can see the difficulty existing with your job (driving/travelling) but they can go anywhere with you...

And your last sentence - while I'm in the same boat - I sincerely doubt you're a massive incompetent joke! You've gotten this far after all, haven't you? I feel like I genuinely know your pain about that, while my situation is a bit different, and I don't really know how to fix myself other than talking to people about it, as that seems to help (hence, this thread obviously).

If you need to share more but don't want to do it, er, 'publicly' - just PM me mate, more than happy to help/listen/read to you if nothing else!

And I've said it here before (and plan to tattoo it before I leave Glasgow, to remind myself as I often need to) but it's very valid in your case - H.O.P.E.: Hold On, Pain Ends.