Sleep has still been the same. Some nights ( like tonight) no sleep at all. I'm working through CBT though, and see things in me I've never recognised before. I get easily angry over really minor things ( and as I type this Vince just got out in the 3rd ashes test, numpty).
I've had a good talk with my son ( baby steps, I plan on pm on advice for next steps), but we haven't fallen out for a couple of weeks. He is still a lazy xxxx and his room is a bomb site, but I'm not letting it get to me, and we celebrated an excellent report card from school.
I feel proud I've not lost my temper, but at the same time a bit guilty I've absolved more parental responsibility onto my wife, but she understands the struggles I'm having and is supportive of me stepping back.
I've started doing more at work, but I am due back on full shifts from New year and my major panic is about managing that with no or little sleep. That is on my mind more than anything, I'm very worried about going backwards, but really want to get back to normal.
Thanks for asking. I had no idea a complete stranger following up would give me such a boost.
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If you look through your initial posts mate, you sound much more positive than you did then, which is massively to your credit, so give yourself a massive pat on the back.
CBT can be a real eye opener, as initial perceptions of it can be that it's " hippy dippy " nonsense, but from my pen experiences of it, that couldn't be further from the truth. Stick with it and the key is to be brutally honest, even if that makes you very uncomfortable. ( it did with me to start with ). Once you get it all out in the open, you can feel like a weight has been lifted, as all that stuff that's been bottled up, for whatever the reason, comes out. It can be quite liberating.
I suspect the relationship you have with your son is similar to many many families, it certainly rings true with me. With my eldest lad, I'm the bad cop and my missus is the good cop. He's a total sh@t most of the time and can manipulate my missus like an expert, which can lead me to losing my rag with both of them.
Also, with your last post, have you thought that you're now also helping others on here now, through your own experiences both in life and work ?.
That's what makes this thread so wonderful mate, as collectively there's so much that we can all offer each other through our own shared experiences and knowledge, to help others.
That in it's self is a truly wonderful thing.
