Forget the footy for one moment, I just need to vent a bit before bed.
Still not taking any medication, it's been close to 3 weeks now. My moods have been quite ratty, little things people do really, really irritate me. I'm extremely fed up at work and in my personal life as well. I explained a few weeks ago how my friend in the place left unceremoniously, since it's been how I feared. I spend the days with no motivation, the work is drying up and becoming very boring and there's nobody to even chat with now to make the time go quicker. I'm half tempted to just resign if not now then after Christmas. I am looking for a new job but going a few weeks or even months without one is something I'm lucky enough to be in the position to be alright. If this week is anything like last week then I might just go ahead and resign. Can't be doing with anymore of this rubbish, sitting in the office doing tedious work when the people around me are thick as plant pots and the business itself is well on the wind down. What's the point?
Personal life is fine but uneventful. Still single and have nothing going on but whatever, I don't obsess over it any more like I maybe was about a year ago. I just see mates when I can and am trying to get fitter. I want life to get on with things at its own pace but I do wish something eventful to happen soon.
Right now everything feels so boring and in a rut and I dread waking up in the mornings because the days feel like they'll be rubbish. I don't think going off the meds has been the main reason for the way I feel either, it's not helped but even if I were still on them the situation would be the same. I feel like my life badly needs a kick start.