Once upon a time, even during the 90s and naughties, we would generally have a decent home record. Typically 3 or 4 defeats and usually to perceived bigger clubs. However that aura has well and truly gone.
I've seen us lose to Charlton, Burnley, Bolton, Sheff Utd, Norwich, Wigan, Fulham just to name a few. Our brittle confidence has been obliterated over the years and it's not even a joke when an evertonian says: "even if we are 3 up in injury time I wouldn't be confident of 3 points"
We expect to lose.
We anticipate a collapse.
We have an inferiority complex.
I wasn't at GP yesterday thankfully, but I was listening to match commentary and you could hear the groans and smell the fear even st 2-0. Both lads said on 85 mins, "don't do anything silly" and "just see this out". Once they pulled one back I knew what was going to happen.
We are a tragic club. Steeped in misery and failure. Rotten and weak to the core. A laughing stock. What's the point in limping along like a terminally ill patient. Just for another year in the top flight. It's depressing.
I made a conscious decision a long time ago to not emotionally invest in Everton anymore. And you know what? It's works. It's better. We lose so regularly and disappoint so often, it means I don't get so annoyed. I actually laughed yesterday when I heard the inevitable 3rd goal go in.
The only downside is that of and when we do win, I don't get top bothered either. I watched the last Derby with 2 redsh*te pals in a bar and barely celebrated when we scored.
I promise every week that I'll not even tune in to watch our games but still can't look away.
Car Crash FC