Discussion & help on depression & mental health related issues

[anjelikaferrett]

I need to stay the hell off Twitter. I'm tired and in loads of pain and the stupidest thing has pushed me to self-harm again. It was Liverpool, and seeing a friend of mine who DGAF about football but fancies Klopp liking pro-Liverpool stuff posted by one of the guys from Space, and Big Nev's tweet about how 'only first is good enough' and the realisation that it will never happen and that I may as well give up on Everton because we will never, ever come first.

And my stupid bloody colleagues cannot or will not accept that it is possible for a 34-year-old to have chronic pain. "Oh, everyone gets tired, it's not just you." "You're only a baby." It's like they think I'm being a stupid drama queen attention whore and it makes me wonder if I should seek help and if it's not all in my head. I went boot camp on Saturday and that, plus standing up for the Manics, has really hurt my legs and back. And I've been told I should keep doing boot camp because it'll get better, but I've done boxercise for 2-3 months, and it still hurts. My punches are stronger, but that's it.

Don't give up on Everton. It's impossible to anyway. They will always suck you back in. As for your friends, just grit your teeth and go with it. I have a few Red friends who are likeable human beings apart from football related stuff. I do my best to keep the things they do on social media out of my real life interactions with them but it is very very hard. Chronic pain is awful. I'm representing a guy in work who is on long term sick because of chronic pain. It's unlikely he will be able to come back so I'm trying to get medical retirement for him. He's 43. There is no diagnosis for what he's got apart from he is in pain all the time and can barely walk. Do you go to a pain clinic? Ask your GP if you can be referred to one if you don't. They have helped the person I'm dealing with to manage his symptoms a bit. Ignore your colleagues - they are showing a stupendous amount of ignorance. Also your condition may be covered by the Equality Act if it is long term, you've had it for 12 months and affects your day to day activities. If you are covered your work will have to make any reasonable adjustments that you need to help you at work.

 

[TyphooToffee]

My daughter told me today that one of my granddaughters is taking CBD oil as a way to combat her hypersensitivity. For the last three years she has struggled to get her to dress in the mornings due to the debilitating disorder. But after only two days she is dressing normally with no problem at all.

I think I might give it a try

I have been taking CBD oil myself now for a week. Using only the weaker, 2.5% strength that can be bought over the counter, I am amazed at the immediate results! Not only am I able to focus on the job in hand, I stick to the point during converstion, I no longer interupt or talk about myself (other than about how CBD oil is changing my life), feel the need to fill in silences in group conversation or feel paranoid.

But that's not the best part. All my adult life I have never been able to hold my drink. Two pints and I'm already near the point of no return. Three and I'm past it. Alcohol has been the cause of most of my troubles and my wife has lived in constant fear that she will again have to come and collect me from some pub or other. I had read that CBD inhibits alcohol, that it takes longer to feel drunk and alcohol plus CBD resulted in significantly lower blood alcohol levels compared to alcohol given alone.

Well I can report that since I have been taking CBD I can drink three pints and not feel as though I have drunk one! Believe me, it's true, it's not a coincidence because I know how my body reacts.

CBD has literally saved me from myself and I can't recommend it enough. I am now using the 5% oil (only available online for collection at a Holland & Barrett shop). It's more expensive (£60 for a 30ml bottle) but I only need take it once a day.

 

[Gareth Gibson]

I know that not many of us on here are fans of the soaps, but Coronation Street has this week broadcast a brilliant (yet harrowing) portrayal of the suicide of one of the main characters, a guy called Aiden.

A lot of it rang true for me. The feeling of isolation that depression can bring and the perception amongst friends that you're absolutely fine. A lot of the other Corrie characters kept saying things along the lines of "Aiden always looked happy to me." The fact that the character was handsome and wealthy also helped because some people falsely think that you have to be impoverished or have a bad lifestyle etc to have depression. Like a "down and out" sort of guy. It can hit any of us.

 

[Wat Tyler]

There is always a way.

 

[LinekersLegs]

Body found near South Queensferry confirmed by police as being that of Frightened Rabbit singer Scott Hutchison

 

[UsernameEverton]

Having issues recently go in a bad mood which lasts a couple of days and then into good ones in which I feel almost euphoric and then I feel bad again

 

[COYBL25]

Having issues recently go in a bad mood which lasts a couple of days and then into good ones in which I feel almost euphoric and then I feel bad again

Have you ever been tested for Bi Polar disorder mate ?

The euphoria and downers are all part and parcel of it.

 

[airefc]

My grandad passed away at 5am this morning , he was 87. He was the reason I support everton just like he did. Despite having some dementia he would always ask about the team. He was in the navy and then a builder.

After losing my nan in 95 the year we won the fa cup, he moved to where I live. After moving into a residential home he had to give up the booze but he had numerous relapses. Things like stealing booze which was the top prize in a raffle, and things like drinking his aftershave and drinking the alcoholic hand-wash

He then moved into a lovely care home on the Somerset levels. Big rooms, a really good view and amazing staff. He loved just waking up and playing music on his CD player and was very a positive person. He was not lonely as things were always going on and staff and residents always coming into his room.

I loved visiting him and then going to see the animals they have in a barn and fields outside for family and residents. Love him with all my heart.

 

[COYBL25]

My grandad passed away at 5am this morning , he was 87. He was the reason I support everton just like he did. Despite having some dementia he would always ask about the team. He was in the navy and then a builder.

After losing my nan in 95 the year we won the fa cup, he moved to where I live. After moving into a residential home he had to give up the booze but he had numerous relapses. Things like stealing booze which was the top prize in a raffle, and things like drinking his aftershave and drinking the alcoholic hand-wash

He then moved into a lovely care home on the Somerset levels. Big rooms, a really good view and amazing staff. He loved just waking up and playing music on his CD player and was very a positive person. He was not lonely as things were always going on and staff and residents always coming into his room.

I loved visiting him and then going to see the animals they have in a barn and fields outside for family and residents. Love him with all my heart.

Lovely post mate x

 

[goodisonopheliac]

Those of you following Big Nev on Twitter might be interested to know he's got a guest tweeting stuff about PTSD.

 

[SiEdmo]

My grandad passed away at 5am this morning , he was 87. He was the reason I support everton just like he did. Despite having some dementia he would always ask about the team. He was in the navy and then a builder.

After losing my nan in 95 the year we won the fa cup, he moved to where I live. After moving into a residential home he had to give up the booze but he had numerous relapses. Things like stealing booze which was the top prize in a raffle, and things like drinking his aftershave and drinking the alcoholic hand-wash

He then moved into a lovely care home on the Somerset levels. Big rooms, a really good view and amazing staff. He loved just waking up and playing music on his CD player and was very a positive person. He was not lonely as things were always going on and staff and residents always coming into his room.

I loved visiting him and then going to see the animals they have in a barn and fields outside for family and residents. Love him with all my heart.

sorry for you loss mate, lovely post for him

 

[anjelikaferrett]

My grandad passed away at 5am this morning , he was 87. He was the reason I support everton just like he did. Despite having some dementia he would always ask about the team. He was in the navy and then a builder.

After losing my nan in 95 the year we won the fa cup, he moved to where I live. After moving into a residential home he had to give up the booze but he had numerous relapses. Things like stealing booze which was the top prize in a raffle, and things like drinking his aftershave and drinking the alcoholic hand-wash

He then moved into a lovely care home on the Somerset levels. Big rooms, a really good view and amazing staff. He loved just waking up and playing music on his CD player and was very a positive person. He was not lonely as things were always going on and staff and residents always coming into his room.

I loved visiting him and then going to see the animals they have in a barn and fields outside for family and residents. Love him with all my heart.

Lovely post. X

 

[kithnou]

My grandad passed away at 5am this morning , he was 87. He was the reason I support everton just like he did. Despite having some dementia he would always ask about the team. He was in the navy and then a builder.

After losing my nan in 95 the year we won the fa cup, he moved to where I live. After moving into a residential home he had to give up the booze but he had numerous relapses. Things like stealing booze which was the top prize in a raffle, and things like drinking his aftershave and drinking the alcoholic hand-wash

He then moved into a lovely care home on the Somerset levels. Big rooms, a really good view and amazing staff. He loved just waking up and playing music on his CD player and was very a positive person. He was not lonely as things were always going on and staff and residents always coming into his room.

I loved visiting him and then going to see the animals they have in a barn and fields outside for family and residents. Love him with all my heart.

Beautiful post. My condolences to all.

 

[brieverton]

My grandad passed away at 5am this morning , he was 87. He was the reason I support everton just like he did. Despite having some dementia he would always ask about the team. He was in the navy and then a builder.

After losing my nan in 95 the year we won the fa cup, he moved to where I live. After moving into a residential home he had to give up the booze but he had numerous relapses. Things like stealing booze which was the top prize in a raffle, and things like drinking his aftershave and drinking the alcoholic hand-wash

He then moved into a lovely care home on the Somerset levels. Big rooms, a really good view and amazing staff. He loved just waking up and playing music on his CD player and was very a positive person. He was not lonely as things were always going on and staff and residents always coming into his room.

I loved visiting him and then going to see the animals they have in a barn and fields outside for family and residents. Love him with all my heart.

I am sorry for your loss mate but glad I read your post if I may say so, I found it heartwarming.

You obviously had a great relationship with your grandad, that shines through in what you wrote.

The memories you have are precious and yours to cherish.

 

[LydiateLee]

Recently handed my notice in at a company I worked at for last 4 years. I was treated pretty horrendously despite the last 4 years coinciding with my divorce, adapting to not seeing my two daughters 5 days a week, subsequent house move, skin cancer and the tragic death of my little cousin (avatar). It's not as if I took loads of time off or moaned about things, I got on with my job to the best of my ability but it clearly wasn't good enough and I was constantly feeling under pressure and targeted, which in the end made me quite ill of late.

Felt I had no choice as I was offered no Leeway at all in a fairly senior position where the pressure is high for someone who hasn't gone through as much as I have.

I'm now in a precarious position for the first time in my life, I feel so down about being in this position despite my best efforts to keep everything together.

My girlfriend has been incredible and I am actively trying to pursue career options but I have bills to pay and daughters to keep. It's a truly rubbish situation I feel I am due a break.

Just thought I'd share as I have been seriously low since it happened.

Thanks for reading.